I must admit that I’ve tooted my horn of “doing missions full time” for quite a while now. Since it’s the one thing outside of being a mom or a wife that really sparks my world, it’s almost all that I talk about…okay…I will go so far to say at times its all I even think about.
But something strange has happened recently. Something totally unexpected that has eclipsed my desire to serve on the mission field thousands of miles from the safety net of the United States. It’s the missison field next door, at work and with the strangers that I see every day who are in so much pain and are searching for something more.
Since we’re currently in Minnesota (as my youngest son finishes high school and we wait for our marching orders) I’ve had the opportunity to be blessed by an amazing Minnesota winter. The snow was sparse and the cold was often just a chill. In fact, this last week we found ourselves basking in the warmth of 75 degree days filled with sunshine and delightful breezes.
In Minnesota, that’s nearly unheard of! So much so that people have donned shorts, traded in their mukluks for flip flops and have thrown open the windows of their houses to enjoy the uncommon valor of a new spring.
But even with all the gloriously beautiful weather, something very serious about a character flaw of mine hit me between the eyes. Although I fill myself up with the Word of God on a regular basis, I attend a fantastic life giving church called River Valley in Apple Valley, MN, I attend life groups and I do kind things for people, I’ve neglected to “share my Jesus” with those who are hurting around me. Why is it that we as Christians feel so safe going on missions trips to third world countries yet freeze in terror when there’s someone next door who is hurting so deeply and so obviously that all it would take is a kind word and a few moments to begin to make a life giving change?
Case in point: the other day as I was pulling out of the garage, I noticed a young teenage girl sitting at the end of her driveway with her dog. They sat alone. At the end of the driveway. But how she was dressed caught my eye. Short shorts and a skimpy silver bikini top. Of course being a good Christian woman, instantly I prayed for her…(isn’t that what all good “Christians” do…pray?) I prayed that she would realize that she has value and doesn’t need to dress like that to get atttention. Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with a bikini (in the right setting)…I own several. But wearing them to tan in your own back yard is different than wearing them to be noticed for the wrong reasons.
Well, I felt I had my bases covered. I mean, I DID pray for her! The rest was up to God to bring her father, her mother or someone of influence into her life so that she felt love, value and self worth growing in her life. So I, being a “good Christian” went on my merry way.
Until the next day.
The next day I was pulling out of my driveway heading to the post office and saw her again. Same short shorts, same bikini …out walking her dog. Again I felt so sad for her…wanting attention from the world so badly that she was willing to walk her dog at 8:30 in the morning wearing not much more than a bandaid. So I did the Christian thing: this time I smiled and waved…and THEN prayed for someone of influence to cross her path and show her she has value. Wow…was I on fire then! (tooting my own Christian horn) ugh.
Yeah, I know. I wasn’t quite playing with all my cards either time, was I? You see, I saw a young girl. Alone. Dressed to attract the wrong attention and I prayed for God to send someone her way to just show her she has value.
Here is what I found out:
I proved that within the first few seconds of my first prayer for her that GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS! You see, fefore I could even utter the words, “Father, please send someone her way to show her your love” he had already done it. He sent me. BOOM! BAM! PRAYER ANSWERED! That my dear friend, is the love of the Father. Sadly however, I was far too blind to see that my mission field was not thousands of miles away, it was at the house across the street. I was God’s answer to that prayer.
God uses us where we’re at. We need to stop praying for someone else to do what God has us there for.
I won’t miss the next opportunity to talk to her and introduce her to the Jesus in me who wants to be her friend, confidant and savior. The one who thought so much of her, who valued her so much, that he died and rose again…for her!
